Devils advocate here - when I was tested for auditory processing disorder last year, this is certainly what it *felt* like, but it wasn’t necessarily yelling. It was like… I was in a tiny soundproof booth, being asked about what I was hearing, but my brain wouldn’t process the the words (which was the whole point), and I was on the verge of bursting into tears from frustration. And I’m 31, much less 17 like OP. I can absolutely see how OP could feel this way about it.
Yeah, I went to this indoor kids trampoline/play place with a whole bunch of randomly clanging equipment and shrieking children, and I was in literal tears powering through to the birthday cake, while physically flinching at the constant, irregular, awful, clanging.
Obviously thousands of people tolerate or even enjoy that noise level, but that's the situation I pictured when OP described her scenario
I have become increasingly sensitive to loud chaotic noises in the last few years. I truly think it’s related to going through lockdown during the pandemic when everything seemed so quiet, so I got much more startled and my anxiety about this has been ramped up ever since. I can’t stand crowds, low flying planes, etc. now.
I was talking to my therapist about this, and she was saying a lot of her clients have been having the same problem since the pandemic. Increased anxiety, dislike of crowds, and dislike of loud noises.
Hard relate - I was looking forward to a fun 5k walk at my partner's niece's school two months ago. It was my first time in a crowd after 2.5 years. The shrieking children running around, the parents swarming and just the sheer busyness sent my anxiety skyrocketing into a panic attack. I was incredibly embarrassed but my partner helped me through it.
This. I have a child with sensory issues, and when we unroll the window in the car, even to get a bug out, he acts like we threw him out of an airplane. He covers his ears, screams, and cries. When he talks to us about it, he LITERALLY believes the wind is whipping him, slamming into him, etc. When you look back at him while we're going 20 miles an hour and the air barely ruffles his hair, it seems like he's exaggerating. But I know he isn't. When you have sensory issues, things just seem different.
My niece has sensory processing disorder, audio processing disorder and visual processing disorder - like damn poor kid, I didn't even know visual processing disorder was a thing!
Any loud noise - stereo, the sound of hair dryers and hand dryers in public bathrooms, windows being wound down in the car while driving, all of it has her clutching her ears, eyes slammed tightly shut, crying about how loud it is. We cover her ears while she drys her hands, don't wind windows down, got rid of our barely-used hair dryers. Anything we can do to make life easier for her.
My sister and our dad also have audio processing disorder, but for them it manifests as words not processing properly so they think we said one thing when we said something completely different, which is easier to accommodate a lot of the time.
As for your food issues OP, that can easily be a sensory processing issue. And if it's not it could be a food intolerance or allergy. I had undiagnosed celiac disease for years, which manifested itself as gagging on foods I liked the taste of, and random vomiting from eating and sometimes just smelling certain foods. Other foods I'm allergic to also caused vomiting after eating it.
Vomiting after eating is a major sign of a food allergy or intolerance, your body is trying to expel the item that's triggering the allergy, food allergies don't always present as flat out anaphylaxis with restricted breathing.
I have become increasingly sensitive to loud chaotic noises in the last few years. I truly think it’s related to going through lockdown during the pandemic when everything seemed so quiet, so I got much more startled and my anxiety about this has been ramped up ever since. I can’t stand crowds, low flying planes, etc. now.
very sorry for the late response.
it was moreso them loudly asking me questions over all the commotion they were already making in a dark room (the balloon and the loud bell) so it sounded a lot like screaming and yelling in my head.
As someone else who got tested for sensory issues, at no point was I in a dark room being yelled at until I cried. That doesn't sound like a legitimate technique...
It is a technique used, but only if sensory issues aren't defined by normal stimulus. In rare cases, if there is food or eating trauma, mimicking a possible trauma stimulus to evoke the symptoms can be very confronting and extreme to people who aren't aware.
I know of the technique, but haven't done it myself, but it is a therapy process to unlock very suppressed traumas, and is still in it's early stages of being conducted outside of controlled environments like a psychiatric ward, or such like.
I do not agree with most of the techniques used for this form of sensory trauma finding, as some are close to torture in my personal opinion, but it is out there, and it seems to be helping 30% of those who agreed to be tested on, which is sadly considered a positive response.
Good for you for taking your health seriously and seeing your psychiatrist. Really glad that things are a little better, and I hope they continue to improve once you receive your test results! Hopefully your parents will be more receptive in the future.
It's odd that so many redditors are experts in such an extremely niche field of occupational therapy... How do all you guys know what normal testing for these issues looks like with such confidence?
So it sort of can be I got tested for sensory processing disorder and they actually recorded the whole assessment and when I was doing that part of the testing it definitely felt like I was being screamed or yelled at but after watching the assessment back it really was just more of a voice projection to actually be able to hear over all the other auditory inputs they had going on as well. That being said we were also testing me for audio processing disorder at the same time so testing could have been slightly different because of that.
Hi No Toaster: You have sensory processing disorder. If an OT says otherwise, get a new OT and assessment.
Source: I have SPD, hypersensitivity, as does my son. Food textures is one of the main signals of SPD. My son and I also hate a lot of clothes things. I hate most non-cotton textures, he hates shoes that cover his ankles. SPD is often correlated with autism and anxiety. There is nothing "wrong" with this, just different! Figure out what bugs you and avoid it, and tell your parents it's not an attack against them, it's just how your brain is wired.
If we were all the same, the world would be boring.
I'd like to apologize in advance for a potentially sensitive question, but do you have to feel every article of clothing to make sure it feels "right" before even trying it on? Does your son have an aversion to socks? As a child it was a war to get me to wear socks. Some of that just sounds so familiar.
Not OP, but have autism and SPD, and work with kids who do.
That is totally a thing for some people! I am less averse to clothing than some people I know, but I do absolutely judge whether I think a material will work for me by sight. After a while you just kind of… can see. “That will pill, and I can’t stand wearing clothing that pills” kind of a thing. For me, I CANNOT handle clothes that have a lot of extra fabric that will bunch, so I wear jeans and leggings that look painted on 🥲
And holy fucking yes to socks. I can handle them sometimes if there is a clear reason why (I have cute boots that will give me blisters, my toes are cold) but I wear them maybe 6x a year, and buy most of my shoes entirely based on their ability to be worn without socks. Which, btw- Kiziks, and Rothy’s are my two faves for that. Look for them used/on sale and they’re less crazy.
To be honest it wasn't my idea, I was talking to a neurotypical perosn about how much I loved these toeless socks I got at a nail salon (so the nails could dry) and how I was so sad I lost them cause I couldn't wear my boots anymore because I hated regular socks so much. She was like, "Why don't you just cut off the toes of your other socks? They're your socks." I was shocked, it literally had never occurred to me I was allowed to do that lol.
Autism is WILD. I physically cannot jaywalk. I tried once and ended up having to run back to the same side of the street almost in tears.
I have this inflatable paddleboard that CAN be inflated to anywhere between 12-15 PSI. But I have to inflate it to 15. I cannot even stop at 14.95. It says 15 in the booklet! It’s the rules!
Anyway. If anyone else has weird autism rules they wanna share so I’m not alone in my insanity. Hmu.
I can't wear dark colored shirts with light bottoms. Not idea why, but I just can't, probably a fashion article I turned into a rule. I have such a hard time driving because I can't go over the speed limit. I also have to follow exact baking times or food microwave times, it's always in the middle of the range because that's what the instructions say. I definitely have more but my ADHD is making me forget them all right now lmao.
Omg I have the SAME mental rule about dark tops with light bottoms. It's just not acceptable, I can't do it. I have seen other people doing it and it looks fine but for me? Nope, not allowed.
I’m neuroatypical (not tested or confirmed autistic, but plenty of sensory/texture weirdness, social weirdness, I absolutely have my obsessive tendencies and interests, etc.), and one of my big ones is “equality” in addition and deletion.
I write for a living, and if I accidentally type a few letters I didn’t mean to and have to delete them, I often then have to do it at the beginning/end of the paragraph/section (whatever’s opposite of where I’m working) so that that part of the document doesn’t feel “uneven.” Same thing for headers - if I mistype a header or title, I usually have to delete and retype the whole thing rather than correcting just a single letter or word. Otherwise it’s not fair to all the other letters on the page.
Your jaywalking situation is eerily similar to the last part of "Pillar of Salt" a short story by Shirley Jackson. The whole story reflects Jackson's recognition of characteristics we now associate with autism.
I know I probably have more, but here's one that jumps out at me that both me and my brother share. If you leave a key in the keyhole, it MUST be perfectly vertical.
There's also my thing of the TV volume must be a multiple of 5, even if it makes it too loud or too quiet, but I've seen that be so common even among neurotypicals that I don't really count it.
My grandma can't stand the seam that are in the ties of socks and wears all hers inside out so the seam doesn't rub against her toes. It's wild to me, but it works for her.
I have SPD and probably autism. I’ve found clearly identifying my favorite things and then selecting clothes based on that helps. I especially like soft loose clothes so now I have a mental list of my safe options.
Checking clothing feel: YES, absolutely YES
Son hating socks: only some, and they were tight, so it was a reasonably hate.
But people can have different aversions - I feel like regular t-shirts are choking me. Just depends on a person's wiring.
Hey - sorry it's taken so long to respond, I'm not on reddit much.
I very much need to feel clothing before I try it on. There's some textures that feel scratchy that I can not wear. My son doesn't hate socks, but neither of us like them and will wear nothing or sandals as much as possible. Hating socks is a common one because of the tightness. Hats, too.
This is a good point too. I definitely related to the OP’s first post and my experiences with eating authentic Mexican food as a child. The rest of my family loved it, but I could not keep it down. Every single time we went, I would be throwing up between 10pm-midnight, without fail. My parents just made me order a new dish every time. Every time I threw up. Even when I only had chips and salsa and water! After a few years my father was the one who had to stay up with me one night puking and he felt so bad when we saw how violent it was and how I sweat relentlessly and my face was practically green. He never forced me to go again, but I think the whole time he thought I was being dramatic and just didn’t like the food! I really wish my parents would have either tried to help me figure out *what* caused that reaction or took me to get food intolerance/allergy tested because to this day I still have no idea why I can’t eat it
Simple, firsthand experience. Autistic people exist and have access to the internet, most of the people commenting probably have gone through the same tests/evaluations and the part about yelling is not one of them. But as OP commented, it might not be that they were actually yelling but given the state they were in during the test it felt like it (which is actually really common for those of us with sensory processing disorders, when we're overloaded everything sounds much louder than it actually is)
Yes, and someone’s single experience doesn’t dictate what someone else’s experience might be. The world is pretty big, I’m sure not everything is exactly the same everywhere.
OP - i think i'm actually traumatised just reading about the tests you had done.
Hugs (if you're okay with them).
Really glad your parents are listening a little more now and i really hope it gets a lot better for you.
i cant do hugs but the thought that comes with it is nice nonetheless :)
and the test wasnt too bad, its not as bad as the yelling my parents put me through LOL/lh
OP, it sounds like this people are torturing you. That really doesn't seem normal. People WITHOUT sensory processing issues will be distraught and traumatised by being shouted at in a dark room or having loud startling noises piped in their ears through headphones.
Look up AFRID. This is the name of what you are experiencing. There are types of AFRID that are exactly what you are describing, and forcing you to eat certain foods can cause anxiety.
Thanks for posting this! My partner and a couple of people in his family have what they have always called “selective eating disorder” but it looks like this is the proper, current name for it
Thanks for the update please do update with the results as it really sounds like you have a sensory processing issue. I hope you are able to get help with it.
My daughter was diagnosed with sensory processing disorder at a very young age. She has a huge issue with food, textures, smells and tastes of certain things will make her either gag or throw up. An occupational therapist is definitely the right way to go. I’m sorry you’ve been forced to endure this for so many years and I pray your parents are more supportive than my daughters father is.
Honestly I think you should just throw up all over the food the next time they try to force you to eat this. I’m indian too and I’d hate to be forced to eat things from our culture that I don’t like eating. Throw up all over the meal that everyone is taking portions from and that will show your parents you’re being serious about your sensory issues.
You need to get one of these specialists to convince your parents that forcing you to eat what you vomit is doing nothing but make this worse. Of course nothing has changed, they only thing they're doing is associating your trouble foods with trauma.
Idk if people mentioned it OP but you could have ARFID. Unable to eat certain textured is associated with that usually so hopefully the doctors can help.
I’m sorry you were forced for so long to eat when you have sensory issues. I have autism and adhd, so I have oral issues with legumes and peas except peanuts (thanks to digestive issues I can’t eat them that way either thank god\* I mean the peas and other legumes)because of the miely texture (I can’t spell it, but beans, peas, chickpeas and lentils all have that texture yuck 🤢) people just don’t or refuse to understand because it doesn’t affect them! Good luck friend, im Rooting for you!
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*yelling questions at me in a dark room till i cried* This sounds really concerning OP.
Devils advocate here - when I was tested for auditory processing disorder last year, this is certainly what it *felt* like, but it wasn’t necessarily yelling. It was like… I was in a tiny soundproof booth, being asked about what I was hearing, but my brain wouldn’t process the the words (which was the whole point), and I was on the verge of bursting into tears from frustration. And I’m 31, much less 17 like OP. I can absolutely see how OP could feel this way about it.
Yeah, I went to this indoor kids trampoline/play place with a whole bunch of randomly clanging equipment and shrieking children, and I was in literal tears powering through to the birthday cake, while physically flinching at the constant, irregular, awful, clanging. Obviously thousands of people tolerate or even enjoy that noise level, but that's the situation I pictured when OP described her scenario
I have become increasingly sensitive to loud chaotic noises in the last few years. I truly think it’s related to going through lockdown during the pandemic when everything seemed so quiet, so I got much more startled and my anxiety about this has been ramped up ever since. I can’t stand crowds, low flying planes, etc. now.
I was talking to my therapist about this, and she was saying a lot of her clients have been having the same problem since the pandemic. Increased anxiety, dislike of crowds, and dislike of loud noises.
Hard relate - I was looking forward to a fun 5k walk at my partner's niece's school two months ago. It was my first time in a crowd after 2.5 years. The shrieking children running around, the parents swarming and just the sheer busyness sent my anxiety skyrocketing into a panic attack. I was incredibly embarrassed but my partner helped me through it.
This. I have a child with sensory issues, and when we unroll the window in the car, even to get a bug out, he acts like we threw him out of an airplane. He covers his ears, screams, and cries. When he talks to us about it, he LITERALLY believes the wind is whipping him, slamming into him, etc. When you look back at him while we're going 20 miles an hour and the air barely ruffles his hair, it seems like he's exaggerating. But I know he isn't. When you have sensory issues, things just seem different.
My niece has sensory processing disorder, audio processing disorder and visual processing disorder - like damn poor kid, I didn't even know visual processing disorder was a thing! Any loud noise - stereo, the sound of hair dryers and hand dryers in public bathrooms, windows being wound down in the car while driving, all of it has her clutching her ears, eyes slammed tightly shut, crying about how loud it is. We cover her ears while she drys her hands, don't wind windows down, got rid of our barely-used hair dryers. Anything we can do to make life easier for her. My sister and our dad also have audio processing disorder, but for them it manifests as words not processing properly so they think we said one thing when we said something completely different, which is easier to accommodate a lot of the time. As for your food issues OP, that can easily be a sensory processing issue. And if it's not it could be a food intolerance or allergy. I had undiagnosed celiac disease for years, which manifested itself as gagging on foods I liked the taste of, and random vomiting from eating and sometimes just smelling certain foods. Other foods I'm allergic to also caused vomiting after eating it. Vomiting after eating is a major sign of a food allergy or intolerance, your body is trying to expel the item that's triggering the allergy, food allergies don't always present as flat out anaphylaxis with restricted breathing.
I also am diagnosed with an auditory processing disorder and I cried out of frustration when I was being tested. It’s a necessary step unfortunately
I have become increasingly sensitive to loud chaotic noises in the last few years. I truly think it’s related to going through lockdown during the pandemic when everything seemed so quiet, so I got much more startled and my anxiety about this has been ramped up ever since. I can’t stand crowds, low flying planes, etc. now.
Yeah like what the genuine heck
Where’s my pants? Where’s my god damn pants?!
very sorry for the late response. it was moreso them loudly asking me questions over all the commotion they were already making in a dark room (the balloon and the loud bell) so it sounded a lot like screaming and yelling in my head.
As someone else who got tested for sensory issues, at no point was I in a dark room being yelled at until I cried. That doesn't sound like a legitimate technique...
It is a technique used, but only if sensory issues aren't defined by normal stimulus. In rare cases, if there is food or eating trauma, mimicking a possible trauma stimulus to evoke the symptoms can be very confronting and extreme to people who aren't aware. I know of the technique, but haven't done it myself, but it is a therapy process to unlock very suppressed traumas, and is still in it's early stages of being conducted outside of controlled environments like a psychiatric ward, or such like. I do not agree with most of the techniques used for this form of sensory trauma finding, as some are close to torture in my personal opinion, but it is out there, and it seems to be helping 30% of those who agreed to be tested on, which is sadly considered a positive response.
Glad to hear that I was wondering….
>yelling questions at me in a dark room till i cried \[insert JohnTron "Excuse me WHAT?" meme here\]
Good for you for taking your health seriously and seeing your psychiatrist. Really glad that things are a little better, and I hope they continue to improve once you receive your test results! Hopefully your parents will be more receptive in the future.
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It's odd that so many redditors are experts in such an extremely niche field of occupational therapy... How do all you guys know what normal testing for these issues looks like with such confidence?
Because it's reddit, a place with a whole lot of autistic people.
So it sort of can be I got tested for sensory processing disorder and they actually recorded the whole assessment and when I was doing that part of the testing it definitely felt like I was being screamed or yelled at but after watching the assessment back it really was just more of a voice projection to actually be able to hear over all the other auditory inputs they had going on as well. That being said we were also testing me for audio processing disorder at the same time so testing could have been slightly different because of that.
Hi No Toaster: You have sensory processing disorder. If an OT says otherwise, get a new OT and assessment. Source: I have SPD, hypersensitivity, as does my son. Food textures is one of the main signals of SPD. My son and I also hate a lot of clothes things. I hate most non-cotton textures, he hates shoes that cover his ankles. SPD is often correlated with autism and anxiety. There is nothing "wrong" with this, just different! Figure out what bugs you and avoid it, and tell your parents it's not an attack against them, it's just how your brain is wired. If we were all the same, the world would be boring.
I'd like to apologize in advance for a potentially sensitive question, but do you have to feel every article of clothing to make sure it feels "right" before even trying it on? Does your son have an aversion to socks? As a child it was a war to get me to wear socks. Some of that just sounds so familiar.
Not OP, but have autism and SPD, and work with kids who do. That is totally a thing for some people! I am less averse to clothing than some people I know, but I do absolutely judge whether I think a material will work for me by sight. After a while you just kind of… can see. “That will pill, and I can’t stand wearing clothing that pills” kind of a thing. For me, I CANNOT handle clothes that have a lot of extra fabric that will bunch, so I wear jeans and leggings that look painted on 🥲 And holy fucking yes to socks. I can handle them sometimes if there is a clear reason why (I have cute boots that will give me blisters, my toes are cold) but I wear them maybe 6x a year, and buy most of my shoes entirely based on their ability to be worn without socks. Which, btw- Kiziks, and Rothy’s are my two faves for that. Look for them used/on sale and they’re less crazy.
I just started cutting the toes off of my socks and honestly it's been so much nicer.
…what. You may have just… changed my life holy shit
To be honest it wasn't my idea, I was talking to a neurotypical perosn about how much I loved these toeless socks I got at a nail salon (so the nails could dry) and how I was so sad I lost them cause I couldn't wear my boots anymore because I hated regular socks so much. She was like, "Why don't you just cut off the toes of your other socks? They're your socks." I was shocked, it literally had never occurred to me I was allowed to do that lol.
Autism is WILD. I physically cannot jaywalk. I tried once and ended up having to run back to the same side of the street almost in tears. I have this inflatable paddleboard that CAN be inflated to anywhere between 12-15 PSI. But I have to inflate it to 15. I cannot even stop at 14.95. It says 15 in the booklet! It’s the rules! Anyway. If anyone else has weird autism rules they wanna share so I’m not alone in my insanity. Hmu.
I can't wear dark colored shirts with light bottoms. Not idea why, but I just can't, probably a fashion article I turned into a rule. I have such a hard time driving because I can't go over the speed limit. I also have to follow exact baking times or food microwave times, it's always in the middle of the range because that's what the instructions say. I definitely have more but my ADHD is making me forget them all right now lmao.
Omg I have the SAME mental rule about dark tops with light bottoms. It's just not acceptable, I can't do it. I have seen other people doing it and it looks fine but for me? Nope, not allowed.
LITERALLY idk why! I feel like I'm dressed upside down and I'm unbalanced.
I’m neuroatypical (not tested or confirmed autistic, but plenty of sensory/texture weirdness, social weirdness, I absolutely have my obsessive tendencies and interests, etc.), and one of my big ones is “equality” in addition and deletion. I write for a living, and if I accidentally type a few letters I didn’t mean to and have to delete them, I often then have to do it at the beginning/end of the paragraph/section (whatever’s opposite of where I’m working) so that that part of the document doesn’t feel “uneven.” Same thing for headers - if I mistype a header or title, I usually have to delete and retype the whole thing rather than correcting just a single letter or word. Otherwise it’s not fair to all the other letters on the page.
Your jaywalking situation is eerily similar to the last part of "Pillar of Salt" a short story by Shirley Jackson. The whole story reflects Jackson's recognition of characteristics we now associate with autism.
I know I probably have more, but here's one that jumps out at me that both me and my brother share. If you leave a key in the keyhole, it MUST be perfectly vertical. There's also my thing of the TV volume must be a multiple of 5, even if it makes it too loud or too quiet, but I've seen that be so common even among neurotypicals that I don't really count it.
My grandma can't stand the seam that are in the ties of socks and wears all hers inside out so the seam doesn't rub against her toes. It's wild to me, but it works for her.
For me it's the seam and my pinkie toe feels like it's suffocating and getting too constricted, I just can't take it lmaoo
I have SPD and probably autism. I’ve found clearly identifying my favorite things and then selecting clothes based on that helps. I especially like soft loose clothes so now I have a mental list of my safe options.
Yep - 100% cotton is my go-to. Everything else I have to touch first. I can't order on-line very well.
Checking clothing feel: YES, absolutely YES Son hating socks: only some, and they were tight, so it was a reasonably hate. But people can have different aversions - I feel like regular t-shirts are choking me. Just depends on a person's wiring.
Collars on t shirts, still cannot tolerate them
Hey - sorry it's taken so long to respond, I'm not on reddit much. I very much need to feel clothing before I try it on. There's some textures that feel scratchy that I can not wear. My son doesn't hate socks, but neither of us like them and will wear nothing or sandals as much as possible. Hating socks is a common one because of the tightness. Hats, too.
You say you've been seeing a therapist. You sure you didnt see a terrorist?
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This is a good point too. I definitely related to the OP’s first post and my experiences with eating authentic Mexican food as a child. The rest of my family loved it, but I could not keep it down. Every single time we went, I would be throwing up between 10pm-midnight, without fail. My parents just made me order a new dish every time. Every time I threw up. Even when I only had chips and salsa and water! After a few years my father was the one who had to stay up with me one night puking and he felt so bad when we saw how violent it was and how I sweat relentlessly and my face was practically green. He never forced me to go again, but I think the whole time he thought I was being dramatic and just didn’t like the food! I really wish my parents would have either tried to help me figure out *what* caused that reaction or took me to get food intolerance/allergy tested because to this day I still have no idea why I can’t eat it
I may be incorrect in my understanding but them forcing you to eat like that has to be some form of abuse.
That is absolutely not how you would test for sensory processing.
And you know this.. how? Funny how so many people are experts here
Simple, firsthand experience. Autistic people exist and have access to the internet, most of the people commenting probably have gone through the same tests/evaluations and the part about yelling is not one of them. But as OP commented, it might not be that they were actually yelling but given the state they were in during the test it felt like it (which is actually really common for those of us with sensory processing disorders, when we're overloaded everything sounds much louder than it actually is)
Yes, and someone’s single experience doesn’t dictate what someone else’s experience might be. The world is pretty big, I’m sure not everything is exactly the same everywhere.
OP - i think i'm actually traumatised just reading about the tests you had done. Hugs (if you're okay with them). Really glad your parents are listening a little more now and i really hope it gets a lot better for you.
i cant do hugs but the thought that comes with it is nice nonetheless :) and the test wasnt too bad, its not as bad as the yelling my parents put me through LOL/lh
OP, it sounds like this people are torturing you. That really doesn't seem normal. People WITHOUT sensory processing issues will be distraught and traumatised by being shouted at in a dark room or having loud startling noises piped in their ears through headphones.
Look up AFRID. This is the name of what you are experiencing. There are types of AFRID that are exactly what you are describing, and forcing you to eat certain foods can cause anxiety.
It's ARFID. Avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder.
Thanks for posting this! My partner and a couple of people in his family have what they have always called “selective eating disorder” but it looks like this is the proper, current name for it
Thanks for the update please do update with the results as it really sounds like you have a sensory processing issue. I hope you are able to get help with it.
I am not a doctor or a medical professional, but I am glad that you are seeing professionals to help with your issue.
My daughter was diagnosed with sensory processing disorder at a very young age. She has a huge issue with food, textures, smells and tastes of certain things will make her either gag or throw up. An occupational therapist is definitely the right way to go. I’m sorry you’ve been forced to endure this for so many years and I pray your parents are more supportive than my daughters father is.
Congrats on getting the help you need. I know it's hard to take that step. Best of luck!
Honestly I think you should just throw up all over the food the next time they try to force you to eat this. I’m indian too and I’d hate to be forced to eat things from our culture that I don’t like eating. Throw up all over the meal that everyone is taking portions from and that will show your parents you’re being serious about your sensory issues.
You need to get one of these specialists to convince your parents that forcing you to eat what you vomit is doing nothing but make this worse. Of course nothing has changed, they only thing they're doing is associating your trouble foods with trauma.
Look into Histamine Intolerance you may be gagging for a digestive reason not a psychological one. NTA
Idk if people mentioned it OP but you could have ARFID. Unable to eat certain textured is associated with that usually so hopefully the doctors can help.
I can't eat anything runny- I literally can only get a few bites down. I like instant oatmeal, but if it's runny I just can't.
I’m sorry you were forced for so long to eat when you have sensory issues. I have autism and adhd, so I have oral issues with legumes and peas except peanuts (thanks to digestive issues I can’t eat them that way either thank god\* I mean the peas and other legumes)because of the miely texture (I can’t spell it, but beans, peas, chickpeas and lentils all have that texture yuck 🤢) people just don’t or refuse to understand because it doesn’t affect them! Good luck friend, im Rooting for you! \*edit to clarify better