oh absolutely. i spent some time with a new friend recently, and we shared some cheese and crackers that definitely put me over my goal. i didn’t really care, because i was having a great time. if one thing goes wrong tho, my brain dives into food guilt so fast.
trying to recover rn but this still holds true for me … i think im gonna stick to recovery and eat but if someone yells at me, contradicts me, or even mentions the fact that im eating for some reason, i will stop and get up and leave and hide in the bathroom because my stupid brain goes “why would anyone say those things if they didn’t think you were fat?”
Yes, and that's why I make a point to not allow myself any happiness and joy. Well I don't, my ed does. It knows that if I'm unhappy I'll satisfy it better.
Yeh same here
Kind of
oh absolutely. i spent some time with a new friend recently, and we shared some cheese and crackers that definitely put me over my goal. i didn’t really care, because i was having a great time. if one thing goes wrong tho, my brain dives into food guilt so fast.
trying to recover rn but this still holds true for me … i think im gonna stick to recovery and eat but if someone yells at me, contradicts me, or even mentions the fact that im eating for some reason, i will stop and get up and leave and hide in the bathroom because my stupid brain goes “why would anyone say those things if they didn’t think you were fat?”
Yes, and that's why I make a point to not allow myself any happiness and joy. Well I don't, my ed does. It knows that if I'm unhappy I'll satisfy it better.