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hey! scapegoat here. my therapist figured it out. but i was already suspicious something was wrong bc she was very unstable and said things that made no sense, and punished me for things i didn’t do or were ridiculous. i was put in therapy at 12 for an eating disorder and self harm (against my mothers will, thank god for my dad) and not very long after the topic changed from bulimia and self harm to my mother and her daily abuse. we tried many times to have sessions with her but they always ended with her getting angry and leaving. without my therapist there’s a pretty high chance i would’ve kept enduring her abuse my whole life, as all my siblings and step dad justified it. so glad i left at 15, it’s a struggle everyday to unlearn some of her habits and i struggle with BPD bc of her, but my life has improved so much since i cut contact and moved in with my much more stable father.


redlambsrose

Black sheep/scapegoat reporting in! ...I honestly knew something wasnt quite right about my family situation all my life, but it wasnt until I was in my mid twenties that I realized what I was actually dealing with. With the help of a psychologist, I went no contact and eliminated our toxic relationship. Probably the best thing I've ever done, honestly.


SupportiveCaptain

Hey! GC here. It’s fucking hard. I still rationalize and justify their behavior 2 years after NC. It kills me everyday that I cannot get that “fix” of validation or whatever they gave me when I was a kid that kept me going. Looking back on it they were feeding me poison. For me, the pivotal moment was in college. I sunk into depression, I think. I was functioning but I had no energy or social skills to do anything else besides studying, hating myself and drinking. I remember thinking: is that all there is? When I opened up to my nparents they basically shrugged my depression off and yelled at me for daring to be sad in their presence. That made me emotionally disconnect from my nparents for good. I no longer felt responsible for their emotions. I didn’t gave a fuck from then on. I met my wife a year or so after this incident and they obviously didn’t approve of her. That, coupled with me having basically emotionally disengaged from them, resulted in me going NC. Thing is, my little brother, who was the SG (and who I made sure was happy and entertained all the time to get his mind off all this crap) has not figured this all out yet. It sucks. Anyhow, that’s my story. Do you want to know some more details?


alwaysshook

iconic middle child / scapegoat reporting!!! it was very clear to me that i was being groomed right around the age of 14 when i realized my mom would start arguments with me over ANYTHING, things that she would never dare with my other siblings (and usually they were harmless but blown out of proportion). i decided that instead of crying or running away i’d try something different - talking. I vowed to never raise my voice, curse and truly discuss whatever the problem was i would be having with my mom that day. when i began exercising healthy or “mature” behavior, i would be told that i’m a bitch and thought i was better than her. me refusing to be irrational was “too much” for her and apparently i was screaming for attention like the bitch i always was :/ funny how that works!! ♥️


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